Here on Pearls to Pampers, I try to be positive. Get Real Wednesday’s are my days to “vent” but I certainly don’t air our dirty laundry for everyone to hear.
Because, really, no one likes a complainer.
But there is something I can’t get out of my head since becoming a mommy of two little girls.
I can’t tell you how many people over the past few weeks have said to me, “Oh, you make it look so easy!” or ” Your family is picture perfect—you are just the best mom!”.
Of course, NOTHING is a bigger compliment to me than hearing those things. Because, I am a mom, and a full time one at that—and all I want in life is to be the best possible mommy to my girls.
But the truth? It’s hard. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life, and motherhood is anything but easy and perfect. And I know I put a lot of beautiful pictures and heartfelt words on this blog, but I would be doing my readers a dis-service by not being honest and saying that it’s hard.
And especially right now, when I’m up all night and my toddler tantrums throughout the day (all we hear is NO, NO NO!), and my sweet newborn cries if her paci falls out (which is about every 2 minutes), and I haven’t had a chance to wash my hair in 3 days or sit down for a meal.
These days? They are draining. They are in constant motion. They feel a little like I am just a care-taker and not a HUMAN sometimes. These days are really, really tough. And I’ve cried many times over the past two weeks—and not just tears of joy.
So when, on a really tough day like today, I am sitting outside with my two girls listening to the locusts,
watching Charlotte eat a popsicle and holding Ellie sleeping on my chest. On a day like today, in that moment, I realize that it’s all worth it. Watching my two girls in silence, outside on a beautiful August evening—I remember that these girls are miracles, and God has blessed me.
So even on these hard days, I am reminded that my work IS worthy. My work IS important, and I AM making a difference.
The hard days will come and go—but my memories of the sweet, tender moments of Being Mommy will last forever. And for THAT—I am grateful.